This morning I read another article highlighting the struggle of parents, trying to work from home, school their children, keep up with the house, adult properly, and stay sane. It’s a tough gig, on every front. Added all together, this is more than any human being is equipped to handle alone. I have to be honest, and admit that I’ve been doing this homeschool deal for so long, that I don’t always stop to remember how overwhelming it was in the beginning.
Our introduction to homeschooling happened, for us, at the worst possible time in our life, when we had just moved across the country, from a very small town, to Orlando, FL with three kids under the age of 7. I had no intention of homeschooling my kids. Ever. But life is funny. I ended up pregnant with kiddo #4, who had a bevvy of medical issues and needed countless surgeries. I was living at the hospital, for months, with an infant in the NICU, my husband was working two hours away from home, and I had three kids in school. I couldn’t possibly keep up with everything that I had going on. Thankfully, my parents and sister were there to lean on.
I was used to dealing with a small town school system, the same one I attended myself. Suddenly I was in a city where I knew nobody, my kids were locked inside a scary looking, rundown C rated school all day. The first day I dropped them off, I cried all the way home. I couldn’t talk to the teachers, to let them know what our family was going through, and I wasn’t sure they’d even care. My kids were completely overwhelmed in an inner city school, and falling behind in their work. They had loads of work that they brought home every night, plus agendas and papers to sign, work to organize and the school was begging for parental involvement, but I was never available, because I was at the hospital with a very sick baby. I felt so guilty and I worried about them incessantly. As, if I didn’t have enough on my plate, I made the insane decision to keep them home, and sign them up for the K-12 program.
At this same time, my infant had been just been given a tracheostomy, and a feeding tube in his abdomen, so I was learning the very intimidating task of trach care and g-tube care, and now I had three kids to homeschool in the couple hours a day that I was actually home with them, but i knew that they were safe and we would get through it somehow.
At this time, as people often will in a crisis, friends stopped calling, everyone backed away from us, and I felt like I was being ostracized for having a “flawed” baby. Of course that’s crazy, but it’s how I felt at the time. As time went on, I realized that it’s much more likely that they just didn’t know what to say, or how to help, but in the midst of it I felt completely abandoned and isolated. It struck me this morning while reading that that is how overwhelmed and isolated others are feeling right now.

I have to make a real effort to remember how this felt, because, quite frankly, I try not to recall it often, but when I hear how people are struggling right now, I can put myself in their shoes, and deeply empathize with them, because I remember how desolate things felt to me then. The kids were the highlight of my life but the weight of the responsibility of them was drowning me. The adjustment period was brutal. It took a while to adjust to having the kids with me all of the time, which I now love, but didn’t always feel exactly that way.
To make a long story short, I was in way over my head with homeschooling, but the K-12 program helped us bump along through the rest of that school year and the next fall my kids went back to public school. We had moved back to an rated A school district, with excellent schools. It ended up being an excellent temporary solution for our family. Once my life settled down to manageable again a few years later, and the boys were a bit older, we decide to try homeschooling again, using K-12, at the time, with much success. It just worked for our family, and still does. This does not mean homeschooling is going to work for every family, nor should it. But I can tell you that the chaos is temporary. You will find your rhythm, and it will get easier. When you are too overwhelmed take a break. Take many breaks. The kids are going to be feel the same, as well. They will also need breaks, and time to just be kids. It’s okay to take time to just be a mom. The work will still be there.

When we were doing the K-12 program, we spoke with teachers on Fridays, they kept the kids on track, and kept the facilitator (parent) informed of progress, and areas that needed more work. They were very clear that the child is solely, responsible for their work; your job is to facilitate. That’s it. It helped to keep the boundaries clear. If you are lucky enough to have public school teachers that agree with this mindset, embrace it, work as closely with those teachers as you can, and don’t be afraid to let them know when you or your child are overwhelmed. Your child’s teacher knows that you did not sign on for this, and they understand how hard it is. They do it every day with 20+ children. They know your child’s strengths and weaknesses, academically. You, as the parent, will learn them quickly, and paired with your knowledge of their character strengths, you will find a way to help them thrive. Don’t forget though,that this situation is harder on them, so don’t get too bogged down in the particulars. Try to cut them some slack, at times, and keep in mind that they are human too. Don’t let the school work become more important than the relationship.
I wish you all the best during this overwhelming situation. Know that it’s temporary. You should not hesitate to reach out for any helping hand you can find right now. We all need to lean on each other, a little more, right now. When you begin to feel isolated call a friend or a family member. Don’t become too bogged down before giving yourself a break. Remember that you are not superhuman, nor are you expected to be. Take care of yourselves, and I hope you and your families are all staying safe.




































